Mine

He is surely mine …
Such a strange strange thing …
How what’s given comes back again …
It had no return to sender …
Yet there it lies …
Pulled in close …
In the tightest embrace …

Reach out to capture …
What was meant to be yours …
Nurture nature and strip it bare …
But know the price …
A soul for a soul …

In making me his …
He is surely made mine …
We meet at the edge of all things …
And see only ourselves …
There reflected …

His eyes shine as mine …
My heartbeat his own …
Our tongues speak helpless words …

And though we make to shift the burden …
Start the flow with me on bended knee …
When he reaches out to claim this prize …
He is captured just the same …

Remembering

Things are finally calming down a little … happily enshrined in my new ivory tower … a totally fresh start …

I can find my clothes … find my shampoo … and walk through a room without tripping over fifteen boxes lol … settled enough to at least go back to some semblance of normal life again …

So I’m sitting here staring at pixels and wondering how i get back into the routine … looking for the inspiration to set me off … so I can write again …

It’s starting to come though … and it occurs to me … that fresh starts aren’t just about forgetting … putting your past behind and trying to pretend it never was … it’s also about remembering …

It’s a good thing to remember the girl who was … and all of the things about her that were positive … though often hard for the world at large to see …

It’s good to remember the years of hard work and sacrifice for family … and all the good that came from that … there is great satisfaction in seeing children grown and finding their own way as healthy well-adjusted people who stay in my world and seek my counsel simply because they trust and love me … I gave them the life I never had … as I always promised myself I would … nothing else will ever match that achievement …

If I had always and only done for myself I could never have known this feeling …

It’s good to remember the years of schooling … the struggle to build a place in my field … and see the success that has come from that too … a decent relatively secure job … better than average pay … interesting work … enough comfort and mobility to afford the things I need and indulge at times in the things I want …

And it’s good to remember the last three years … the road from there to here … all I’ve seen and all I’ve done … every challenge … every heartache … every brutal inch of the worst of those months … because that was the fire that released the phoenix to rise from the ashes so to speak …

Such a cliche to say that there is no pleasure without pain … and yet so true … no happiness without sacrifice … no joy without suffering …

I have felt it all … and remember it all … who I am is who I was … just made stronger … freer … and even more able to love … in the only way that love can truly be … selflessly and without question …

So only the things that held me down shall be forgotten now … the old world is a new world … full of the light he made for it … and anticipation of an airplane ride to a sunny place … where the sweetest of remembrances resides …

Where he waits for me …

What Was Hiding

quickienewyork:

She used to poke me through my cage.


I was wrapped up in chains of all types, but mostly it was guilt, fear, and shame. They often appeared as kindness and empathy, which isn’t at all a bad thing, but there was always something beneath it. She could see right through it all though, and she made it her mission to keep poking until she found what was hiding.


The easiest way in was through turn-ons I didn’t know I had.


“You can’t do anything to me that I will say no to.”


I would growl and push her against the wall as she moaned and shook her head. I’d threaten to tie her to my radiator and fuck her ass until she cried, and she’d moan even louder while telling me I didn’t have it in me. When I slapped her face she’d spit at me. Even when I pushed her to her knees and forced my cock down her throat it was clear she wanted more than I had to give.


The closest we got was in a fantasy world we created after too much tequila. I kidnapped her on her way home from school and tied her to the floor in my room. She struggled and kicked as I tore and cut her clothes from her body and her resistance pulled no punches. She made me work for it, and I knew that if I brought my cock anywhere close to her mouth she would bite. She was always soaking wet by the time I touched her, but still she squirmed and snarled as she did everything in her power to get away. I fucked her as hard as I could, dropping every ounce of restraint I had, and not denying myself a thing.


If I wanted her ass I took it. If I wanted to bite, slap, or choke her I did, but hiding inside her lust was always another challenge. Was that all I could do? Was that the whole monster or was I still holding back. What was I so afraid of?


When we lay exhausted in the early morning hours, I finally untied her, and I held her tightly to make sure everything was okay. She kissed me and said it was wonderful. I wrapped my arms around her and revelled in the destruction we had done to my room, but no matter how far we had gone there was always somewhere else to go.


Each time I returned to normal her love just barely covered her disappointment.

 

Guy New York

(If you enjoy my writing, you might like my novel, The Island on The Edge of Normal, now available on Kindle and in Print.)

Proper Nouns
My favourite nouns aren’t really so proper … they have an in your face quality and cutting edges …
But what’s proper anyway … and who gets to define it …
If my love puts me down on my knees on cold hard ground … worshiping most properly  … even at risk of discovery … where is the disgrace … where the indignity … I see no impropriety …
Let my heart’s purpose then be fulfilled … though the wind bites hard … and concrete chafes on sensitive skin … I know what’s proper … and ache to adore that which is properly perfect … my favourite noun of all …
Our virtue may be in our intentions … but it is lived out through our deeds … one without the other is an empty promise …
So name the place then love … where I shall kneel at last … perhaps just call it love and say no more …
That name or another … is just another noun … what matter if it seems quite proper or not … in the substance of that place will be all our redemption … where you are so am I … and life is lived …
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Proper Nouns

My favourite nouns aren’t really so proper … they have an in your face quality and cutting edges …

But what’s proper anyway … and who gets to define it …

If my love puts me down on my knees on cold hard ground … worshiping most properly … even at risk of discovery … where is the disgrace … where the indignity … I see no impropriety …

Let my heart’s purpose then be fulfilled … though the wind bites hard … and concrete chafes on sensitive skin … I know what’s proper … and ache to adore that which is properly perfect … my favourite noun of all …

Our virtue may be in our intentions … but it is lived out through our deeds … one without the other is an empty promise …

So name the place then love … where I shall kneel at last … perhaps just call it love and say no more …

That name or another … is just another noun … what matter if it seems quite proper or not … in the substance of that place will be all our redemption … where you are so am I … and life is lived …

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rolledtrousers:

Alley Cats
I want this to feel like backalley sex, where every moan is vying for airspace with the screech of a cat, and the relentless hubbub of city washing by in waves of pedestrians and traffic. I want you to hear the wail of the siren hit on the offbeat before my hand connects on the on. 
It’s the grime on my hands as they slip over your porcelain skin, marring the surface of it, smearing filth onto your thigh as I cut a swathe through your mind. Pay no attention to the soft light against the curtain; there’s nothing comforting about this room, not with me in it. I want you to feel like there’s graffiti on the duvet, rubbing paint off against your stomach. 
You shouldn’t feel clean. Cleanliness is not for the likes of you, it’s not on the list of priorities. You’re dirty on the inside, and I’m going to make you feel unwashed on the out. Sweat and sex covering you in a sheen, until you’re too exhausted to do anything but calcify, too tired to think of anything but a shower. Too ashamed for anything but a soak. 
This isn’t about tearing you down so you can build yourself back up. This is about peeling back the layers until there’s nothing left but you, shivering in a pile of yourself, all the scuffed shreds of your self construction a sprinkled halo on the ground. But you’re no angel, you dirty little thing. 
You’re mine. 


What good are halos anyway …
More likely to block the sun than shine its light …
My heaven is found in a grimier place …
Where the likes of you and the likes of me …
Find the commonest of ground …
All that self-constructed brilliance …
Left gladly on the ground to sparkle gamely …
As though it could reassemble at a word …
To make the charming angel charm again …
As that other world would have it …
But there is no other world now …
Mine is yours and yours is mine …
Cats that stalk the night and come to own it …
Strip the fraud away and leave no doubt then …
Of what is real beneath this gentle show …
A dirty little thing that shuns all pretense …
True angels need sweet devils …
To light their way …

rolledtrousers:

Alley Cats

I want this to feel like backalley sex, where every moan is vying for airspace with the screech of a cat, and the relentless hubbub of city washing by in waves of pedestrians and traffic. I want you to hear the wail of the siren hit on the offbeat before my hand connects on the on. 

It’s the grime on my hands as they slip over your porcelain skin, marring the surface of it, smearing filth onto your thigh as I cut a swathe through your mind. Pay no attention to the soft light against the curtain; there’s nothing comforting about this room, not with me in it. I want you to feel like there’s graffiti on the duvet, rubbing paint off against your stomach. 

You shouldn’t feel clean. Cleanliness is not for the likes of you, it’s not on the list of priorities. You’re dirty on the inside, and I’m going to make you feel unwashed on the out. Sweat and sex covering you in a sheen, until you’re too exhausted to do anything but calcify, too tired to think of anything but a shower. Too ashamed for anything but a soak. 

This isn’t about tearing you down so you can build yourself back up. This is about peeling back the layers until there’s nothing left but you, shivering in a pile of yourself, all the scuffed shreds of your self construction a sprinkled halo on the ground. But you’re no angel, you dirty little thing. 

You’re mine. 


What good are halos anyway …
More likely to block the sun than shine its light …
My heaven is found in a grimier place …
Where the likes of you and the likes of me …
Find the commonest of ground …


All that self-constructed brilliance …
Left gladly on the ground to sparkle gamely …
As though it could reassemble at a word …
To make the charming angel charm again …
As that other world would have it …


But there is no other world now …
Mine is yours and yours is mine …
Cats that stalk the night and come to own it …


Strip the fraud away and leave no doubt then …
Of what is real beneath this gentle show …
A dirty little thing that shuns all pretense …
True angels need sweet devils …
To light their way …
I could never be my true self … particularly hard when you don’t even know who that person might be …
But in trusting him I finally found her … and strangely enough I came to see that trust works both inwardly and outwardly … not only did I gradually come to have faith in his care … but also faith in my own instincts … faith in my own judgement … faith in the patience he taught me …
The more I have let go … allowing myself to blindly give … the more that decision has been validated … his net has closed around me … and in the security of those bonds I move more freely than ever before …
What better purpose for such freedom than to devote it to service … of the one responsible for that liberation … there is greater joy in surrender to his wise dominion … greater satisfaction in simple humility … than there could ever be in a hundred years of self-seeking frivolity …
The web he spins is a perfect home … so there I rest … knowing myself and all my reasons at last … eager only to be his dearest pleasure … for now and for always …
herliege:

This is what these ties are for. To provide a safe haven, a space to be, a place at his feet where she may be free to offer her surrender and accept his rule. To wrap her up in trust until she feels safe enough to let go completely and be her true self. 
To make absolutely sure that net is strong enough. 
M. / Her Liege 
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be-pleasing-always:

Slowly he secured her trust, spun the strongest safety net, the warmest blanket. She lingered, the rope caressing and intoxicating, and rested safely in the ties that bind.  
~ cat / be-pleasing-always
photograph: Frank Petter / Lazarus Walking | rope by Elmerald
I could never be my true self … particularly hard when you don’t even know who that person might be …

But in trusting him I finally found her … and strangely enough I came to see that trust works both inwardly and outwardly … not only did I gradually come to have faith in his care … but also faith in my own instincts … faith in my own judgement … faith in the patience he taught me …

The more I have let go … allowing myself to blindly give … the more that decision has been validated … his net has closed around me … and in the security of those bonds I move more freely than ever before …

What better purpose for such freedom than to devote it to service … of the one responsible for that liberation … there is greater joy in surrender to his wise dominion … greater satisfaction in simple humility … than there could ever be in a hundred years of self-seeking frivolity …

The web he spins is a perfect home … so there I rest … knowing myself and all my reasons at last … eager only to be his dearest pleasure … for now and for always …

herliege:

This is what these ties are for. To provide a safe haven, a space to be, a place at his feet where she may be free to offer her surrender and accept his rule. To wrap her up in trust until she feels safe enough to let go completely and be her true self.

To make absolutely sure that net is strong enough.

M. / Her Liege

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be-pleasing-always:

Slowly he secured her trust, spun the strongest safety net, the warmest blanket. She lingered, the rope caressing and intoxicating, and rested safely in the ties that bind.

~ cat / be-pleasing-always

photograph: Frank Petter / Lazarus Walking | rope by Elmerald

whisperedverse:

I take her hand, and I lead her through the darkness— not because she is weak, but because she is weary of being strong; not because she is helpless, but because she wishes my help, and I long to give it; not because she is lost within the silken shroud of the ebon night, but because I am lost, and in leading her, find a light within myself to guide our way.

rolledtrousers:

Villainy
You would make a villain of me. With your soft smiles, and quick eyes, mischief flitting from one iris to another, pupils dilating ever so slightly as you shiver with the anticipated thrill of it all. You ape innocence like a half remembered thought, the impression of an impression that you once saw performed by a friend who’d just come from a comedy club, the echo of the comedian resting poorly on their unfamiliar features. You don’t know what you’re doing, but you’re doing it to me. 
It’s only fair; I made you the victim, after all. At your behest, but still mine were the actions, the intent. I drove you to your knees, had you begging out with that tortured mixture of lust and desperation, both of them seeming so similar when you’re on the brink of whatever this is. You adopted this role because it’s a fantasy, and anything that could bring you closer to that latent desire was fair game. 
But what of me, what of the ways my personality is perverted, elevated with wickedness, as my hand, my words, rain down on you with practiced ease. I push myself up on your shoulders, driving you down into the ground, until the light is behind me and there’s just a terrible silhouette of a man, a man who could do these things and live with himself. I lose myself in that outline, because I’d rather not be found. 
You make me a villain, but that’s what I wanted to be. That’s where my fantasy lies, as morally apposite as that might be. We create our demons, just so that they can chase one another like dogs. 


You wanted to be …
Because you’re just so not …
Villainous that is …
So gauche of me to notice …
Devoutly practiced wickedness …
Seemed the perfect charade …
Just destined to be found out …
But we both live the fantasy don’t we …
Of a darker us inside of us …
My innocence lost …
And yous never found …
Mischief become our shared stock and trade …
Yours just a different shade of deviant …
And though we despair …
The lust is oh so sweet …
Come chase me then …
My dearest love …
These demons were born to paint the sky of life …
As only lost souls can … High-res

rolledtrousers:

Villainy

You would make a villain of me. With your soft smiles, and quick eyes, mischief flitting from one iris to another, pupils dilating ever so slightly as you shiver with the anticipated thrill of it all. You ape innocence like a half remembered thought, the impression of an impression that you once saw performed by a friend who’d just come from a comedy club, the echo of the comedian resting poorly on their unfamiliar features. You don’t know what you’re doing, but you’re doing it to me. 

It’s only fair; I made you the victim, after all. At your behest, but still mine were the actions, the intent. I drove you to your knees, had you begging out with that tortured mixture of lust and desperation, both of them seeming so similar when you’re on the brink of whatever this is. You adopted this role because it’s a fantasy, and anything that could bring you closer to that latent desire was fair game. 

But what of me, what of the ways my personality is perverted, elevated with wickedness, as my hand, my words, rain down on you with practiced ease. I push myself up on your shoulders, driving you down into the ground, until the light is behind me and there’s just a terrible silhouette of a man, a man who could do these things and live with himself. I lose myself in that outline, because I’d rather not be found. 

You make me a villain, but that’s what I wanted to be. That’s where my fantasy lies, as morally apposite as that might be. We create our demons, just so that they can chase one another like dogs. 


You wanted to be …
Because you’re just so not …


Villainous that is …

So gauche of me to notice …
Devoutly practiced wickedness …
Seemed the perfect charade …


Just destined to be found out …

But we both live the fantasy don’t we …
Of a darker us inside of us …
My innocence lost …
And yous never found …


Mischief become our shared stock and trade …
Yours just a different shade of deviant …
And though we despair …
The lust is oh so sweet …


Come chase me then …
My dearest love …
These demons were born to paint the sky of life …
As only lost souls can …

Her Liege: A 'good' Dom?

herliege:

Anonymous asked: When I picture the epitome of what I believe a dominant to be, I imagine that it is you. Your love for Cat embodies everything in which I would hope ever dominant aspires to. Having said that, what characteristics do you think make a good dom?

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Well that’s quite a way to…

rolledtrousers:

Dogs Chasing Cars
I’m not supposed to enjoy the chase this much. That’s the sign of a temperament, an inclination, a proclivity towards the act, the thrill, the adrenaline hit that I get when I’m in pursuit. That’s the sign of someone who won’t be satisfied when they catch the object of their desire, when I’ve finally got you. I’ll just go searching again. 
But it courses through my veins, when I’m after you. It’s an electric thrill that starts in my chest and rockets down my fingers, to every word that I type, up to my lips, making them fuzz, to every word that I whisper in your ear. The world is vivid, when I haven’t quite got you yet. It feels like I’m on edge, tracking every single detail of every single scene, for the one thing that will make you mine. 
The trick, then, isn’t to figure out a way to lock myself down, make me not want to chase any more, geld myself so that the urge to run doesn’t make my leg twitch when I’m asleep. 
No, the trick is to never let me stop running. I haven’t got you until you’re down and begging, every piece of yourself offered up on a platter. The girl that always has something left, not held back but just further in, is the one that will keep the electric running over my skin,every hair raised and on edge. A bottomless depth of a person, a midnight blue. 


Midnight isn’t even close yet …
Even our edges have edges …
Cut glass crystal to catch the light …
And hold that blue for our very own …
It isn’t a trick …
It’s the whole damn circus …
Perpetual high wire flight …
Adrenaline become a lifestyle …
So the further in the farther out …
Shivers enough to go around …
I won’t give in if you won’t blink …
There’s always more to see …
The girl you waited for …
The one with no end …
We can hold on so tight …
Well past midnight … High-res

rolledtrousers:

Dogs Chasing Cars

I’m not supposed to enjoy the chase this much. That’s the sign of a temperament, an inclination, a proclivity towards the act, the thrill, the adrenaline hit that I get when I’m in pursuit. That’s the sign of someone who won’t be satisfied when they catch the object of their desire, when I’ve finally got you. I’ll just go searching again. 

But it courses through my veins, when I’m after you. It’s an electric thrill that starts in my chest and rockets down my fingers, to every word that I type, up to my lips, making them fuzz, to every word that I whisper in your ear. The world is vivid, when I haven’t quite got you yet. It feels like I’m on edge, tracking every single detail of every single scene, for the one thing that will make you mine. 

The trick, then, isn’t to figure out a way to lock myself down, make me not want to chase any more, geld myself so that the urge to run doesn’t make my leg twitch when I’m asleep. 

No, the trick is to never let me stop running. I haven’t got you until you’re down and begging, every piece of yourself offered up on a platter. The girl that always has something left, not held back but just further in, is the one that will keep the electric running over my skin,every hair raised and on edge. A bottomless depth of a person, a midnight blue. 


Midnight isn’t even close yet …
Even our edges have edges …
Cut glass crystal to catch the light …
And hold that blue for our very own …


It isn’t a trick …
It’s the whole damn circus …
Perpetual high wire flight …
Adrenaline become a lifestyle …


So the further in the farther out …
Shivers enough to go around …
I won’t give in if you won’t blink …
There’s always more to see …


The girl you waited for …
The one with no end …
We can hold on so tight …
Well past midnight …
Simple beauty …
In an infinite turning …
Each pulling on the other …
To an end unknown …
The grace of the spiral …
Perfectly molded …
An effortless seamless whole …
A rose that marks its time …
In arms of love …
jtotheizzoe:

This triple gear is a real thing, and thanks to some intricate math and the advent of 3-D printing, it exists. Before this, at least as far as I can tell, a triple-meshed gear required one of the gears to turn in the opposite direction as the other two. That is no longer the case.
I can’t for the life of me imagine what this would be used in, but hey … at least we have it now. Get to designing!
(via henryseg on Shapeways)
Simple beauty …
In an infinite turning …
Each pulling on the other …
To an end unknown …
The grace of the spiral …
Perfectly molded …
An effortless seamless whole …
A rose that marks its time …
In arms of love …


jtotheizzoe:

This triple gear is a real thing, and thanks to some intricate math and the advent of 3-D printing, it exists. Before this, at least as far as I can tell, a triple-meshed gear required one of the gears to turn in the opposite direction as the other two. That is no longer the case.

I can’t for the life of me imagine what this would be used in, but hey … at least we have it now. Get to designing!

(via henryseg on Shapeways)